Tribute to someone I never knew....

it amazes me sometimes how the actions of others can make an impact on your life.its just astounding that people whom you never talked too or knew well before in your life can make your day turn upside down.its just one of those unexplainable things in life that you'll have to accept and live with it.

i'd always believed that life was fair...life was good...you can do whatever you want in life and not have to worry about the consequences.for the past month i've been bombarded with constant reminders about the meaning of life and just this evening i've just been nuked.my whole understanding and concept about life is completely shattered.is life really that fair as i thought before?is it all that good?why does the good have to suffer but the bad enjoy?i'll guess that i have 6months to think about this and hopefully by then i'll have a better understanding about what is life.

up to now i still can't comprehend and digest what just happened.its funny because i'm not the direct victim but a mere bystander.i don't have to be in this situation but funny enough i am!!even me being famous for talking crap and cracking wise jokes during awkward times can still be baffled and speechless by what i've seen so far.being a bystander you want to help,you want to ease their burden but deep down inside you, you know that there is nothing you can do.you feel so helpless...and speechless at times.you don't know wat to say or wat to do at times.you can just stand there for hours thinking wat to say next but after half a day you still haven't come up with anything.

i think if i got 11G's for spm i still wouldn't feel as bad as what i am feeling now.this is just shitty.its human nature to blame someone or something when some shit happens but right now, there is no one and nothing for you to put the blame on.right now i cant come up with words to express myself.basically life is so........................................

as the saying goes, there's light at the end of a tunnel...all i can do now is to give support and hopefully with the help of others guide your ship through this dark tunnel.take care my fren and may god be with you.amen.

and as for the someone who went away for a very very very very long holiday,i did come to see you before you went.i don't know if u knew about it but anyway i wished i had came a bit earlier before all this happened.i hope to meet you someday when the time comes and we're going to have a nice chit chat at starbucks ( if there is one there ) and i'll chia.have a pleasant journey:)

those of you who doesn't know the full story regarding this post, i'd rather much appreciate that you forget about this post, thank you